entragian's Diaryland Diary

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I'm a mum now!

FUCK MY LIFE.

I just typed a huge entry and I accidentally hit a button and it was lost.

I am unreasonably angry about this.

Can I give cliff notes?

- I love my daughter
- I hate Chris and might call his ex-girlfriend to take him off of my hands for the rest of my life. I may bribe her with money.
- I'm fat, and I need to lose weight
- I'm tired of doing EVERYTHING and wish Chris would help out more.
- I'm going to start getting Chris up early in the morning before he goes to work so I can exercise
- Josh leaves for New York tomorrow and I'm super sad about it.
- I have the shittiest relationship in the world.
- My mom's an alcoholic and has been forbidden from seeing Berlin until she goes to therapy and AA.
- I've decided against med school and plan on becoming a Physician Assistant specializing in surgery and OB (so I can still help deliver babies n' stuff) and also because PA's don't have to go to med school, don't have to pay malpractice insurance, make a TON of money, I'd have a career by age 28 if everything goes according to plan, and if I get bored of OB (which I doubt), I can assist in other surgeries within other specialties.

I'm still mad that it was deleted. Who can I kill? Hmm, Chris...possibly.

I really want a cigarette. I'm at work now, blogging. Which isn't necessarily a good idea, because people could be watching. But I don't care. I am bored, I hate this job and have NO interest in Business or Stock or Retirement Plans, and I'm tired and need to vent.

Also, I am going to start blogging more. Being a mom makes me need to vent more.

Did I mention that Chris complains about never having time to himself when he just recently leveled a draenei hunter (lvl 25 to lvl 60) within a few days?

I hate Chris. I really do. And that's not a good thing. Lucky for me, he doesn't give a shit as to whether I hate him or not.

I want to move out, but I don't have that option. I have a child to support, and I'll be DAMNED if anything stands in my way from going back to school.

I just wrote something really mean about Chris but I deleted it. It was too mean. I may be a raging bitch, but I'm still considerate. Ish.

At least I have less than hour left of work. I hate Maine. I need to live somewhere warm, with lots of pretty people and with lots of opportunities. Maybe after I graduate college, I'll get a good job somewhere out west and leave this freezing shithole.

5:51 p.m. - 2010-10-27

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